I have one question for you guys:
What does "healthy" mean to you?
Does it mean avoiding junk food completely and making SURE you NEVER miss a workout?
Healthy is, and technically SHOULD be, different for everyone... Because everyone is different.
No person has the same body, the same exact needs, cravings and wants, as another.
Food of any kind should not carry guilt alongside of it. Whether it's a bowl of oatmeal or a bowl of Doritos, neither one of those should EVER make you feel "guilty" about eating them. Unless you eat this bowl of Doritos for breakfast everyday, it will not effect you negatively (unless you're allergic obviously!). It will not make you fat. It will not make you a disgrace. It's not a "slip-up". It's a part of life. Yes, eating what you truly want IS a large part of a normal life.
A balanced, moderation-filled diet is not the only importance to a truthfully healthy lifestyle, though. Another great importance is your exercise. Working out for you, on your time. Doing what you love, when you want to. When you can. Resting when your body needs/wants rest. Not feeling "forced" to burn a certain amount (this is TOTALLY something I personally struggle with), not feeling like you NEED to workout or you can't eat for the day. Not feeling like you need to cancel date nights, days out with friends, family outings, etc. just so you can workout. Because, think about it... What will you more likely look back on? That one workout, or that one night out with good company? (...I think we both know the real answer to this one!)
Life cannot be enjoyed if you surround yourself with numbers, or obsessive thoughts and actions.
If anything, take from this post the courage to give up any restrictive mentality you are living with.
Especially if you have been living like this for months on end, it won't be easy. It WILL take time. It WILL take effort. It WILL be hard. But that's when you have to prove you are strongest. That's when you try your hardest, from this moment on, to truly listen to your body.
If you hate running, but love lifting, don't run. Lift.
If you hate lifting, but love HIIT, don't lift. Interval train.
If you hate broccoli, but love spinach, you know which green to choose.
If you hate cookies, but love brownies, treat yourself to a brownie.
It's that easy. Life is too short, too beautiful, to be lived negatively or forcefully.
If you feel guilty, you are doing something wrong. Use your power to change that something.
Only ever do what works for you.
Live for you.